Amber Rose became largely famous after her relationship with Kanye West, but has admitted the end left her in a dark place.
The pair dated between 2008 and 2010, and after the relationship ended, West told stories about it in maybe his best album ever, My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy.
She recently shared her part of the story on Everyday Struggle with Joe Budden, DJ Akademiks, and Nadeska Alexis.
“There are little things in there, but I don’t know,” Rose said in the interview, explaining that she’s not the only woman who should be credited. “But it’s a great part of history and hip-hop and that’s cool, and I’m happy to be a part of it.”
She revealed that after the relationship ended, she was at a loss with what to do with herself.
“It wasn’t a great time for me because I’m famous, and I’m broke and I don’t have any money,” Rose said. “We weren’t married, he didn’t owe me shit. I had to figure out what I was going to do with the fame and with my life at the time… For me to have that type of fame, a lifestyle with a man and then not have it anymore—but still have paparazzi outside, with no money. I had to figure that out. Not including the fact that you [DJ Akademiks] and other people on the internet are constantly poking and fucking with me while I’m going through this hard time. And then it’s like, okay: so I can’t date anybody else; I can’t say anything on the internet because Kanye has such a voice. But imagine being me. It’s constant scrutiny. If I was gonna kill myself, I would have done it during those times. I had to be me to get through that. I don’t think a lot of people would have got through that the way I did.”
Many of the lyrics of MBDTF saw Ye accuse Rose of being the reason their relationship fell apart.
“When the sun go down, it’s the magic hour/And outta all the colors that’ll fill up the skies/You got green on your mind, I can see it in your eyes,” he rapped in Devil In A Dress.
Rose however said she had no problem with the album.
“It’s art, man,” Rose said. “It’s art. But you have to imagine: at that point, I have no voice. I have no voice at all. I have a couple of followers on Twitter, maybe, at that point. That is an extreme form of bullying: to have such a huge voice to put out an album to say whatever the fuck you want… I had to just take that L, I had to take that heartbreak on top of it.”